Sunday, 30 September 2018

And so the 2018 Tory Conference begins...

As the 2018 Conservative Party conference season opens I wonder if this is the start of the end of the Tories for a generation. Already they have the embarrassment of the conference app allowing access to the personal details of many registrants. For a party wanting to break free from the constraints of the EU, it is perhaps ironic that the flagship EU law of 2018, namely around GDPR has been so spectacularly contravened. Time will tell as to whether the enormous potential penalties that can be levied on companies in breach of this new law could put a huge dent in the Conservative coffers.

It is not just a financial dent that we are talking about here. The potential for a political dent is immense, whereby a beleaguered leader is still attempting to peddle the Chequers Plan, which has been so clearly dismissed by the EU as unworkable. There is in fact no solution to the Brexit quagmire other than a new referendum. In fact now that the detail has emerged on the consequences of us leaving the European Union, it seems only fair that we vote based on facts, rather than on, as was the case in 2016, political sound bytes.

Theresa May is not in a good position right now. In fact this conference could serve to define her destiny, be it the "bloody difficult woman", leading the country, and indeed the Tory Party, out of this horrendous mess, or being consumed by the Machiavellian manoeuvres of the men in grey suits.

The likes of Boris Johnson, serving only the interests of their own careers rather than of the country just keep throwing the bombs over at Mrs May, and she keeps dodging them, claiming that Chequers is the only viable solution on the table, even when it is not. As for Boris he wants some kind of Canada+ solution, which simply fails to address the small issue of the Irish border.

Brexit will not happen. I am convinced of it. It is a mathematical impossibility. Unless the EU yields of course, which is what David Davis is predicting. So as the rest of us start stockpiling food and medicines where we can, we are told that things will "get scary" in the next few months.

If only it were that it got scary. Its more than that though. It's the lost opportunities whilst we are going through this. Only today the Guardian revealed that the vote to leave the EU is already costing the country £500 million a week. It's strange that the Tories used to be considered the party of business. Not any more, especially not after Johnson's ignorant comment to "fuck business". Even Digby Jones saw that as unacceptable.

What would be scary is if that man makes it to become PM. I don't think I can remain in this country any more if that happens. But then what is the alternative? Jeremy Corbyn? After years of saving up for my pension, only to see it stolen out of my hands.

Right now the future is bleak for me. I need to get through this kidney problem. I need to have a donor so that I can move on with my life. I keep waiting for the phone to ring, but so far only false alarms have come.

I'm isolated, introverted. Safe in my cocoon but vulnerable to the political future. This is not a good strategy for me. Work is safe too, but dull. These are not good years for me. Only one stability in my life makes it bearable - R. And for that I am truly blessed.